pissed

I am feeling pissed off. I am so mad!!! I have an aching back since I sat through that tick movie (which was very upsetting by the way). It was called Under Our Skin about lyme disease and was absolutely disturbing. I hope though that doctors see it so they can help people who have undiagnosed lyme and I hope that it makes people want to research lyme more.

I am expected to do way more here in our house than I can. How can I care for our new baby proplerly and do the following:
Laundry - this means getting the clothes into the basket, lugging the basket downstairs, putting the clothes into the washer ...putting them in the dryer is a biggie...hard to do with baby, so usually put him down for all these things...getting them out of the dryer and getting them back upstairs. Oh, and then the folding and putting away of everyone's clothes.

Change, Wash and Dry and Fold Sheets - Every one to two wks for everyone else unless sickness. Once or twice a week for me depending on spit up and pee on the sheets and bed. It takes A LONG time to do this. The middle two kids get crazy and eventually I yell! At least lately. I hate this and think they are sick of waiting for me to go downstairs so they can eat and play. (They get scared to go by themselves unless Katie or I go too) Got to come up with a new solution. This is not working well. At least not today.

Diapers - They need to be washed again. Do it about 3 times a week.

Cook....and I mean some healthy meals like fruits cut up and veggies and make a meat and potato dish for Jim and me and Katie and Kana and a vegetarian dish for Li
Mad feeling: How the heck does Jim come home and think I actually fed the kids dinner. I told him they only had Amy's Pizza and so he needs to feed them dinner. What does he do? Makes macaroni and cheese. What?????? Doesn't he care about their health? If I could have cut up apples, cantelope, sliced the tops off of and washed strawberries, cut up cucumber, made up a little baby carrot pupu platter for them, I would have, but I just couldn't do it today. How come he doesn't make healthy things for them???????? They had enough starch and processed food! They had eggs and toast for brunch, Kana had quesadillas and not sure what else Li had, oh yeah, I think Ritz crackers and chips when I took a nap. Thank God I slept an hour today. Good, Jim is trying to make food and the baby is crying. I will get him, but see Jim, it IS NOT easy is it. Try doing this ALL day. Try having Kana and Li getting crazy on top of it or siblings fighting. Then you have the nerve to think I made dinner???!!! Going to get baby.
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