I wish Katie felt better. I don't like her not feeling well. I worry about her.
She tends to always have some sort of problem: dizzy, legs ache, growing pains, gas, bloating, back hurts, ankle gives way, emotional, stressed out, ran too much and can't breathe because her throat feels raw and then mucousy...asthma she wonders.
There always seems to be something wrong with her health. I am at the point where I don't expect her to feel good anymore. That is so sad! Yet when she is with her friends or doing something where she is really enjoying it and very involved, she seems fine. But that could change if her ankle gives out or she runs too much and gets winded or something.
Is this normal? Did I do something to make her think there is something wrong with her? Is there really something wrong with her? Is this a phase she is going through? If so, it must be a long one as I remember that as soon as she could tell me about headaches and stomach aches she had them almost every night! That didn't end until we moved her. Then dizziness was the big problem. Now it is gas in her tummy and leg aches or growing pains as she calls them. Feeling emotional has been happenning for a long time too. The latest thing is the feeling like she can't breathe after running too hard in soccer.
I don't get all of this. But I guess we will all get through it and learn something! I don't have to understand everything. I just hope that I retain compassion and empathy without making more of things than necessary. (I try not to feed into her upsetness, yet be there for support and love.) I must admit that sometimes I feel so frustrated that it seems like there is always a physical problem!! I wish she said she felt great! Maybe in time! In the meantime, I need support to hang in there! (Geez, now I sound like a complainer...and I do feel good! But it can be hard when you wonder if there is anything really wrong or if she is not feeling good during these times and will be okay in the long run. Never do I wish to negate her feelings or not trust her, but I get crazy inside my head because I worry in spite of knowing/thinking her personality and how she feels pain and things more than others might. What should I do, not worry? Just be there and go with the flow? Maybe thinking positive, that she feels good and is fine will help? And she might be, but when she says xyz hurts or whatever, I believe her. Yet I know she might appear like it is more than it might be for another.)
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
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